The Fear of Remaining “Uninformed”
Another experience that left a strong impression on me during my time at andu amet was the fear of being “uninformed.”
As someone who had always been interested in international affairs and believed I was keeping up with global issues, the blog written by Samejima-san, “The War in Ethiopia and the Invisible Scars” was deeply shocking to me.
Until then, I had viewed the civil war in Ethiopia somewhat abstractly, as something happening in a distant country. However, learning that family members of the workshop staff had been forcibly conscripted into the military, and that even after returning from the battlefield they continued living with severe PTSD, completely changed that perspective. I also learned about families who, while raising young children, continued waiting for the return of husbands who had been mentally scarred by the war. Each of these stories confronted me with the reality that war is never just news from the past or a matter of numbers and statistics.
There were also occasions when Samejima-san spoke directly to us about the current situation in Ethiopia. Hearing these stories from someone who had actually lived and worked there carried a weight entirely different from reading articles or watching the news. Every time I heard about the difficulties of continuing to operate the workshop, and about how deeply the effects of war had penetrated everyday life, I was reminded of how limited the world I had previously seen truly was.
If I had never become involved with andu amet, I might have continued living without ever knowing these realities. When I realized that, what frightened me was not simply “not knowing,” but the fact that I could have remained unaware without ever questioning it.